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Today is the first time I dared to get on the scale since I joined Buddyslim and started trying to lose weight for the umpteenth time and I lost 25 pounds!  I am so excited!  I guess refraining from those fast food drive thru’s really does help (HAHAHA, of course).  The holidays are here and I thought for sure I’d be back sliding by now, but I’ve really kept the self control and will power strong and that’s a big accomplishment for me because that has always been my downfall in the past.  My spring show season for my candles is fast approaching and I am determined to be able to get through a full show day without feeling like I want to die by the end of the day and I’m on my way!  I went back to college and I will graduate in Spring of 09 and I am determined to lose a lot of this weight by the time I go on the stage for the graduation ceremony.  I can’t change my wedding photos or all of the family photos from over the years, but that one’s going to be the frist one in over a decade that I will be proud of.  Seeing that scale drop in the doctor’s office today just gave me so much more inspiration to keep going!

We are getting ready to go to bed, but I had my husband bring the exercise bike out of the dungeon and set it back up in the living room.  Starting in the morning I am determined to make sure I ride it every morning before I go to class.  I spent the money on it and used it twice, then it became a dust collector.  NO MORE!  I’m going to get my money’s worth tomorrow.

I’m also really excited because I got my teenage daughter  psyched up tonight to try to lose weight with me.  She promised me that she is going to get on the bike every day after school.  We made up a chart to keep track of how long we are each on it every day.  My husband and I are cleaning out the cupboards tomorrow night and he’s taking all the junk into work with him on Friday for all the guys to eat (instead of us) and then I’m going for groceries tomorrow evening (pay day) and stocking up with what we should have here.  Every other time I tried to lose weight, I would still leave all the stuff here for my husband, but I told him tonight that if he is going to support me, then he has to let me get this stuff out of the house for now until I can get some control over my cravings and he agreed.  YEAHHHH! 

I woke up late today and grabbed a Pepsi on my way out the door to go to class.  After class, our group decided to work on our project, so I didn’t get home for lunch.  Just grabbed a cup of coffee on campus.  Although, once I got home, I had a nice salad for dinner.  All in all, it’s still a lot better than the types of food I would usually consume throughout a day.  So, tomorrow is another day.

OK, here we go!  I haven’t tried losing weight for awhile.  I feel so confined and I know I miss out on a lot with my daughter and my husband because of my weight and I really want my life back.  I won a small candle business and I haven’t done any shows this year.  I made excuses that my schoolwork oad was too heavy to bother with shows this year, but the truth is, I just didn’t want to get out there in the public light looking like this.  My show schedule starts again around April/May 2008 and I really want to start getting this weight off so I look better when I go to the shows.  Yes, I know that I won’t be anywhere near my final goal by then, but I will be on my way.

Our dog passed away this past spring due to severe arthritis and I’ve been buggin my husband about getting another dog because I miss having the company when I’m here at home during the day.  He keeps saying “no” because he was really upset when we lost Mason and he doesn’t want to get attached again, so I made him a deal this past weekend.  I asked him that if I lost 100 pounds, would he let me get a dog.  He said that if that will give me the motivation that I need to succeed in this difficult weight battle, then yes, I can get a dog if I lose 100 pounds.  I was (and still am) so excited. 

Hopesfully all of this is the motivation that I need to get going and keep going this time.  We have a big haunted house/hayride in our area at Halloween time and I haven’t been able to go for quite a few years because some of the hals in the haunted house are too tight and I’m afraid of getting embarrassed if I can’t fit through.  Plus, it’s hard for me to get onto the hayride wagon because I trying to get my weight up onto it.  I can’t wait until next year because I plan on going with my husband and daughter.  Halloween is my husband’s favorite holiday.  He loves seeing all of the kids having fun and I want to be able to be a part of all of that again. 

We live 5 minutes away from Hersheypark and my daughter and husband get season passes every year, but I don’t anymore because it is too hard for me to walk around the park and I don’t fit on the rides anyway.  My husband absolutely loves amusement parks.  He’s a big kid at heart.  Well, watch out next summer, ’cause I’m going!